My friends, Xanga has reached a crossroads where they must raise $60k by July 15 or make this a blogger paid site: http://thexangateam.xanga.com/773587240/relaunching-xanga-a-fundraiser/
I've had this blog since Dec. 2002. I was 23, freshly graduated from college, living back in AZ in a small apartment and working as a travel agent and radio promotions rep. My mom was still alive & I talked to her everyday. I was dating around, with hopes of finding love. The whole world was in front of me. This blog has followed every ounce of pain, twist of life, drop of happiness and hope. You've seen me lose my mom, have my stepdad and many friends leave my life, lose and quit jobs, face skin cancer twice, lose my friend & cousin Audrey and other family & friends, and deal with much heartbreak. You've also seen me find love, make new friends, build a career, and reconnect with my family. I've shared my thoughts on life, death, politics, morals, and everything in between. This Xanga site has been my sounding board, sanity, comfort, comedy relief, & joy for over 10 years. It is because of this site I've made some real life, irreplaceable friends, and because of this site, some of my existing friends got to know me better. I got to know me better, and sometimes I look back at old posts and don't even recognize the author! (I mean really, when I started this blog I was proud of the President I had voted for!)
But I cannot afford to pay for blogging here- not when there are other options. Trust me, I know many of these posts over 10 years weren't worth a cent! I think the time has come to make a break for it, start new somewhere else. Enter my mid thirties with a fresh start (since I don't get too many of those anymore).
Don't worry, I'll find a forum for my ramblings & update you about where I land! In the meantime, I might be the easiest person to find online! You can email me: email@example.com, tweet at me: @truebritt & @BrittanyC_PR, friend me on facebook and Path, and Instagram: @truebritt739. I also have Pinterest & reddit, but I rarely use either.
Keep in touch my friends, & I'll do the same. I could try to express how much each of you mean to me, but please just know my life is better because you're in it, & I'm humbled and grateful.
I close with the advice my mother always ended her phone calls with: "Be careful, be safe. Take care of yourself. I love you."
A Phoenix Police officer recently was killed in the line of duty & he left behind a wife and young daughter. The following week after he was killed, his daughter graduated from kindergarten. Dozens of police officers showed up to support her. This picture brought tears to my eyes. As many of you know, I lost my dad when I was 8 to a plane crash. Growing up without a dad was very hard. Once, a kid said to me, "I have a dad and you don't!" I missed out on Father Daughter dances with the Girl Scouts because I didn't have a dad. When my moms friend (a gay man named Zane who died of AIDS years later) wanted to take me to the dance, he had to fight for it as troop leaders didn't want to allow a non-father at the dance because they were afraid it might lead to many other non-fathers coming. They didn't even care that it was because my dad had died.
My heart went out to this little girl who will never know her dad, and to the officers who were there for their fallen. I hope she continues to have their support over the years & hopefully she won't encounter the issues I did.
Guys, I'm just putting it out to the universe that I'm destined for greatness, starting with winning the Power Ball. Here are the things I want to do after I'm a multi-millionaire: 1) pay off & close credit cards 2) buy my friends house in Prescott that they've had trouble selling. Finish the renovations & keep it for all of us to use (it's an incredible house) 3) pay off home loan. 4) put in new flooring at house 5) finish putting in blinds at house 6) fully pimp out backyard, including extending patio to include built in BBQ and hot tub 7) vacation at Ayada Resort in the Maldives 8) buy commercial property 9) invest! 10) fly my grandma out to see me 11) invest in Puerto Peñasco aquarium so it doesn't look 3rd world 12) pay it forward- donate to the charities that are important to me 13) finally go to Europe! 14) buy a new car. Nothing silly- I'm not a fan of the expensive. But maybe an awesome truck.... 15) start scholarship at my sorority at CU. Hand out free money to the girl who works full time, goes to school & is member of house. Just like I did, but without having to struggle to pay for it all
What would you do if you won? You know, if I didn't....
I am thrilled for the 3 women who fled their abductor(s) in Ohio recently, and filled with hope by their story & the stories of Jaycee Dugard and Elizabeth Smart. I hope other families never stop looking for their loved ones and are rewarded by having them return home in one piece. As most things do, this story made me reflect on my own life & experiences. The crazy things I've done & the shock I'm still here in one piece. There was the night I went home with a guy I met at a club... In Mexico. I woke up in a amazing condo, alone, on the other side of town but not 100% sure where I was. No phone to call anyone. That story turned out ok- he came back with breakfast, took me back to my friends & that was the end. Or the cute new guy I saw walking to summer school from my neighborhood in high school. I befriended him & flirted with him. I even kissed him once, but he rebuffed my advances. Then he moved and I never saw him again. Until a year and a half later, when he was charged with a string of violent rapes at the nearby university. Or the numerous road trips I did by myself. I even pulled over & slept in my truck at a gas station once. Sketchy. And yet- I'm still here. It's amazing to think of the paths we take, & how a chance encounter or moment can change it all. Or maybe it'll just be a story you tell later, as you reflect on actually still being around to tell it.
Work is stressing me out right now. I can't even sleep through the night. Not to go into details, but I can't wait for my upcoming trips & Mexico vacation. I just need to get away.
Don't get me wrong, I love my job. But right now is very uneasy and stressful. Guess I have to take one day as it comes and be grateful it's not my old job that I hated!
Have you heard of the Alabama Shakes? They've been around a while, were even the SNL musical guest a few months ago, but I've kind of adopted their song "Hold On" as my new theme song. See if you can figure out why
Bless my heart, bless my soul. Didn't think I'd make it to 22 years old. There must be someone up above sayin', "Come on, Brittany, you got to come on up. You got to hold on... Hey, you got to hold on..."
So, bless my heart and bless yours too. I don't know where I'm gonna go Don't know what I'm gonna do. There must be somebody up above sayin', "Come on, Brittany, you got to get back up! You got to hold on... Hey, you got to hold on..."
"Yeah! You got to wait! Yeah! You got to wait!" But I don't wanna wait! No, I don't wanna wait...
So, bless my heart and bless my mind. I got so much to do, I ain't got much time So, must be somebody up above saying, "Come on, girl! Yeah, you got to get back up! You got to hold on... Yeah, you got to hold on..."
"Yeah! You got to wait!" I don't wanna wait! But I don't wanna wait! No, I don't wanna wait!
You got to hold on... You got to hold on... You got to hold on... You got to hold on...